Is this the way people ‘die’?
Tuesday, September 16th, 2008.
Some say it as ‘Quarter-life crisis’. Just look an entry in wikipedia. It’s there. Read all about it. I have all the symptomps.
Well, it’s time to be honest to one’s self. Am I in a so called ‘quarter-life crisis’? I guess so. I bored myself to death.
In a way, i thought to myself. So this is the way people ‘die’. What i mean by ‘dead’ here is not technically/physically ‘dead’. They just went numb in the inside. Imagine a situation where you are at age 30-something. Trying to connect with the world around you, but you just couldn’t understand a thing. As if the world is speaking in another language that you don’t longer understand. You are too lazy to learn something new, because you’re brain is stucked with the same thing over and over again. You become a robot. Living you’re life in routinity, day in and day out. You feel that there is no more challenges left that could excite you. There is no more things that can eager you in excitement. Thus, you’re as good as a veggie (no offense there).
I don’t know. Have i become a robot? Somehow i miss being excited. That tingling feeling of being challenged to something that attracts you. That goosebumps on the day of your first date. That overwhelming feeling when you look at something that pleases not only your eye but also touches your soul. Where have all these feelings gone?
Am i destined to be one of those numbskull? With no passion for life. Do I believe that I was destined for something great? Well one must believe.
Have I achieve something valuable in life? Will I ever achieve something? What is really important in my life?
I don’t know. I guess I would have to reflect on these questions again. Who am I? Who do I want to be? Who do I choose to be?
What’s the point? Career? Achievement? Soulmate? Welfareness?
I want to do something I like. Something that makes me feel meaningful. Yet i don’t know what it is.
Blabber. Oh sucks!!!
Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa……………………….
